Life

Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I wanna spend more time with my grandparents

Ah Kong and Ah Ma. Guess these few years I've been so absorbed with giving tuition and spending time in church etc.. til I've neglected them both. I admit.. Like ah ma always says, ever since my family started going church, we hardly go out for dinner with them. My family used to bring them out every weekend when I was a kid, even til when I was in secondary school. Those days, we often went to their house for dinner on weekdays. Ah ma and ah kong both love to cook and they get pretty excited when my parents and I go back for dinner. Emerick once commented that it's only when my family goes for dinner, then will his family get to eat good food. Haha... =P (Too bad, my dear cuzzie. God created me to be lovable la. So ah kong and ah ma dote on me so much mah.)

It has been ages since my parents and I last went for dinner on a weekday. We went back for dinner this evening. I was at ah ma's house early today. Both my grandparents started pouring out their woes. Ah ma was telling how bad she felt when both of them were mistreated by my uncle's wife and cousins when they stayed over at my uncle's place over the weekends. Ever since my uncle Allan bought a new cluster house, he has been getting both my grandparents to stay over every weekend. Yet, I know that they were not welcome at his place. I was so angry when I saw my ah ma cry. I teared too. But there's little I can do since it concerns the elders. Even ah kong who hardly complains, was pretty angry. I promise to bring them out this Sat so that my uncle wont have to ask them over to his house.

I wont want them to feel mistreated. Ah ma and ah kong has 3 sons and 2 daughters, of whom my mum being the eldest. Although my youngest aunt married aboard for almost 20 years and rarely comes back, she really cares for them. Seriously, only my family and my aunt's family care. Their sons are all USELESS!!!!! I know ah ma felt really upset with all the nonsense with the daughters-in-laws. They were either heartless, cant-to-bothered or rude.

Seeing all these sagas of in-laws problems in my family and among my friends, I really pray that God will enlarge my capacity to love my in-laws in future. I really need to plan my time well to spend more time with my grandparents.

Ah kong always dreams of living in a big, big house. I wanna earn lots and lots of money so that I can buy a big house to let my parents and grandparents live in.

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Monday, November 19, 2007
I'm back!!

Having MIA (missing in action) for so long, it's time that I return to blogging. Life for me, the past few months, was basically consumed by mountains and mountains of workload. What have I been doing? TEACHING!!!! YES.. TEACHING! I went back to West Grove Primary School to teach as a form teacher. Yet untrained relief teacher.

What was the experience like? Worse than what I had 3 years ago when I was in the same school

teaching a class of 39 primary 2 students. This time, I had 41 primary 4 students. My class, 4H, the second best class of the whole level. So stress for me cos I had to maintain the standards of the class. Many people doubted my ability since I was young and a fresh graduate, and most importantly, what parents are concerned of is the fact that I'm an untrained teacher.

The school actually had a shortage of teachers. Initially I was told to take a Pri 5 EM3 class but then there was another class which they considered more urgent, so they forced me to take the class despite the fact that I volunteered to take the EM3 class cos the teacher who previously took that class had to teach music, and music is not a problem to me. But I still ended up taking my 4H. Destined!!!!

When I first took the class, fellow colleagues, parents, principal and even my students doubted my teaching ability. (my monkeys, admit it. The first day I went into class, u people completely thinking I cannot teach.) By the grace of God, I pulled through the 5 months

with loads and loads of tears and sweat. Pressure from everywhere was certainly overwhelming. I really thought of giving up if it wasn't for the compassion I had for the kids. Pretty poor things cos the class had a few change of form teachers before I took them at the start of term 3. I was the teacher who taught them for the longest period this year. Initially I was only supposed to take them for a term, but the school requested that I stay on to complete the year.

Lots of drama in class each day. A class of funny and troublesome kids I had. Thankfully, at the end of the day, the class did well for their exams. Even the new principal was pretty impressed with the results I produced. I received lots of recognition from my fellow colleagues, my HOD, vice-principal and even parents.

My fellow colleagues all thought that I can teach and they are really a bunch of great people who would always think of funny ways to trick me to consider signing on as a teacher. NO WAY!! Even my HOD and vice principal spoke to me regarding this matter. I remembered when I was in secondary 2, my home econs teacher told me to be a teacher cos she thought I would be a great one. I told her, "Over my dead body." Even dad asked me to sign on. Siao ah. Does anyone has any idea what life was when my day normally begins at 6am and ends at 2am? As a short-term teacher, I wont mind, but I definitely do mind lots about selling my life to the local education system which I HATE. If I ever have the choice and ability, I doubt I'll let my children to be educated here.

One great thing I had was I met my primary 1 chinese teacher in West Grove. She was teaching the afternoon session in the school while I was teaching in the morning. The last time I met her was 10 years ago. Wow... I long knew God pre-planned everything.

Like I say, it was then my calling to teach, to inspire and change lives. Now it's the end of that calling, it's time to move one. The biggest reward I received is a class of loyal and loving children. Thank you to my dearest 4H.

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