Thursday, February 08, 2007
Miserable
Felt so miserable ytd during the gathering with my pri sch frens. Horrible. Why? Cos someone thot she's very eloquent and kept picking on me.
One of them came back from Australia and asked me to organise a gathering. I'm always the one doing this dirty job. I'm not hardup to do it. Thot just help to organise sth to make everyone happy, instead I was made miserable. It never pays to do such stuff and I'll nv be appreciated for it.
Somehow, someone finds it an extreme thrill and joy to keep making fun of me and picking at me. Every qn she asked, every ans I gave, she could just make fun of it and make a mountain out of a mole. Thanks. I really "appreciated" it. I dun need those kind of attention. She perhaps like the idea of building her joy at my expense.
She always make me the evil one and she, the saint. She would always call the rest up before the gathering to warn them not to be late, otherwise I'll be very mad and angry. Come on, I seriously couldn't be bothered if u are late or whatsoever, if there's a reason behind. One of them was 40mins late ytd, I understand cos she had to make. But she always makes the point to portrait me as the unreasonable sort, making the others fear of me, every single time, without fail. What for? I used to play along with her accusation. But I calmed down after the dinner ytd, to realise that this crap had been happening every single time we meet up. After analysing the whole thing, I just feel that she's sowing discord among me and the rest. Thanks. Having being frens for 12yrs, this is the nonsense that I finally came to realise.
She claims that no one dare to tell me off and only she has the courage to do so. Fine. Bravo for that courage. Seriously, I dun need all the attention that she created. She just wants to prove that she's very eloquent and no one else could win her in a debate. By all means, u win. All I wanted was a peaceful dinner and great catching up. But ytd, I found her extremely noisy and annoying.
I'm not angry, but deep down I'm very hurt. Dun wish to organise anymore of such thing to make myself more hurt in future. A clap takes 2 hands. Dun see why I'm always contributing my time and effort for sth that brings me more harm. Actions speak louder than words. She can always do the saying, and I'm always the one doing the action. Just like that instance that I had to shop and make the delivery for the birthday gift to one of their moms, to bring over to australia, even if it inconvenient me. In my honest opinion, I really dun mind doing it for a long-time fren. But seriously, whoever came up with that idea, should do the followup, planning and take actions.
What car I want and what kind of bf or husband I want, or whether in future my husband needs to walk to work is none of others' concern. I appreciate the fact that if u really care, but save the sarcasm. The sarcasm and that sense of humor ain't amusing.
OH, i'm so in love with victorian at {/11:36 PM}
