Sunday, August 14, 2005
A Heart after God
Service was superb today. Never felt so powered up throughout the whole svc. It wasn't hype. It was the move of God. We had a near full hour of praise and worship. Indeed, a great and anointed session lingering with God. I've never felt so good for a long long time. Revelations after revelations, visions after visions. So many things which God spoke to me. Wasn't in a super good mood today before I went for svc, but the moment I stepped into the house of God, things changed. I've never been feeling so whole for a long time. Deep down I know that I'm reborn again.
I dun think I still miss him or have any feelings for him. God has mended me and gave me new birth, cos I can wear that bracelet he bought for me without feeling anything. Looking forward to the great future which God has in store for me ahead. God, surprise me when You think I'm ready k?
Psa 42:1
As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O God.
Pst Kong shared that above scripture of Psalm 42 today at the end of Praise and worship today. That was like an affirmation for God. I've been coming across this scripture the past wk, in the bible, on the net, from the hymn which Life Bookstore was playing the moment I stepped in. Once or twice maybe coincidental, but three times is surely a message from God.
Our life is a worship and sacrifice unto God. God is our source of life. How could anyone forsake life for death? God seeking for yearning hearts, hearts that are after Him, not acts. Jesus my saviour who gave His life in exchange of my eternal life. I made up my mind that from now on, everything I do, I do for the will of God. Not my will but God's will be done. No matter how hard things may go, God will always be there for me, for He's my strength. So devil, get behind my back cos I will not bow down to u or the circumstances.
Some words to share with some of my darlings:
To Suetie: hey dear, no matter what happen, how busy u get, seek God first. You gotta get out of your comfort zone. I know u'll try. Promise? No matter which church u go, u still have to build up ur spiritual life cos u'r a temple of God too. I'll be there for u always when u need me.
To Yeling: Ger ah, so proud of u and so good to have u back in the family of Christ once a again. Can see that u are making effort to build back the relationship with God. Jia you. I'll always have u in my prayers and love ya.
To my young Jo No.3: hey dear, sometimes the goings in life do get tough, especially in serving God. Things dun always turn out the way we expect and people often do disappoint us. But we still have our Lord, our Heavenly Daddy who will take care of us and the things we go through. He wont let us bear more than we could. Remember, He has made u the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. Gotta study hard and shine for Him k. Waiting to hear great testimonies from you at the end of the year. Need help, just call me.
To my dearest: really felt sad for you for the things you do and the ways you feel. u bow down to circumstances and allow them to control u, instead of taking control over them. Seeing you sliding away and hanging the the edge of life hurt me. Not that I dun wanna help, but it's more of u willing to be helped anot. You can hide and deceive the whole world and even the spiritual authorities put over ur life, but u cant deceive or hide from God. Ask urself if the things u did before, were they for God or for man? U can called to be a God-pleaser and not man-pleaser. You can put on a mask and act before men of God, but you cant hide ur heart from God. You knew that I would do anything for you, just to see u well and whole. Because of you, it costed me a close friendship and my rewards, insults from others who perceived to know u inside out. I was made to feel like a busybody. Hello? I'm not so free to be one. If you din matter so much to me or to God, I really wont bother. But nonetheless, u must wake up and stand up on ur feet and seek Him. Cant you see that the devil is already mocking? Fight back. Ask and let God deal with this battle.
OH, i'm so in love with victorian at {/12:14 AM}
