Still remember when my primary school, we used to write autograph books every year and besides our usual particulars, there would always be a section where we would list and rank our friends based on their closeness and importance to us. I still remember we would rank our friends according to the value of precious stones and metals, ranging from diamond to aluminium. (Ha.. why aluminium? cos it's disposable.) The people whom we hated or disliked in class would be called scattered leaves. (or leaf cos in everyone's autograph book, there will always be 1 same name appearing> Class enemy Yap Kai En. Yucks... Mega disgusting jerk. Still owe me money. cant get back liao. dunno where he die to.)
Had a talk with Adrian today. Talk about friendship. Somehow struck me to think further. I realised that even til now, I got my ranking list of friends (or people whom sometime I call friend).
Never like to define people whom I have mere acquaintance with, as friends. To me, friends are people whom I love to share joy and pain with. They are people whom I trust and love, whom I can have fun with, who I can share secrets with, who I know that will stick with me through all. Well, come to think of it, then what about the rest? The majority of the people I know, my ex-classmates, schoolmates etc....
Well, I concluded that friends to me are people who I feel comfortable talking to and spending time with. So at least I know that people who I dun really talk to, or most importantly those who I dun feel comfortable talking or seeing are not in my list of friends, but mere acquaintance.
Well but those who I really treasure are all my bosom friends. Not everyone can be my bosom friends. That I know for sure. People like my close uni, JC, sec school and church friends who knows all my secrets are those who I really love and treasure. Thank God for them.
Claris came over to stay on fri nite after prayer meeting. Although both of us super tired le, we still had a good chat. I love those kind of chit chat in cafes with my friends. But that kind of chat we had that nite was different. It's that kinda of close-door bedroom girl talk. Love it.
Adrian said I'm that kind of person who will go all out to be a friend. Well, certain things did happened and honestly I kinda dun wanna commit myself to anymore other people le. I'm scared to let new people coming into my life anymore. I just want a break from life. Just wanna be a better friend to all my existing ones. Thank you Jesus for being my best friend.
