Ok, enough is enough. I think I had enough of those misery weepy days of self-torturing and self-hating. I had to climb out of this pit of depression and make myself happy again, even if it means to force myself to be happy. God's love for me is great, how can I not love myself? There is nothing I'm looking forward to this birthday, so all the more I gotta do something to make myself look forward to that day. Me going squandering on myself and pamper myself completely the whole week. Me shall love myself more and more. I just need to love myself. Even if the whole world dun love me, I still got God and myself. Hee.. Cheer Up Jo. Gotta get out of the pit and get on with life. Muacks...
There's so many things I want to do. But Val just msged again. Hai.. Me gonna be so busy next wk cos of all the choir pracs for the Benny Hinn Crusade. Had I just realised that next wk, me only got tues and wed evening free. Ok, but me free in the day though. Best of all, choir prac on mon, my birthday. Why, why, why...... Why always got choir prac on my birthday? Hai...
Watever... But me still gonna pamper myself. Got a long list of things which I wanna do to pamper and love myself. Me not like Chantal la, got someone to love her so deeply, buy her diamonds and even LV bag.
Go for spa, aromatherapy massage and facial. Not really achy in my body, but after the long period of heart-wrecking experience, me need a touch of "love"---comfort.
Wanna go get the ticket to Sound of Music. Doe-Rah-Mi-Fah-Soh....
Go on a shopping spree.
Hi-tea at the Scotts Lounge @ Hyatt or the Flower Hi-Tea at Ritz-Carlton Lounge
Buy a new pair of shoes cos I just found a pair of my $80 shoes the leather cracked. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... I only wore it a few times. Does anyone know how to fix it? I'll willing to pay any price to repair it.
Save up money to buy myself a necklace from Tiffany the day I end my vow.
And the list goes on.
I shall live my each day to my happiest. I shall be happy. I know I will when I start to love myself. Long long nv pamper myself liao. Looking forward to my massage.
